Monday, May 29, 2006

A lovely trip to Singapore

For the past few months, I have been really working hard to get tings done some, redone and some still working on it to be done. I was able to straighten up a few things at work and some more personal things. Any ways, I had to make this trip to India, which I did on May 28th, 2006. Considering my traumatic experiences with the cab drivers and the airlines, I decided to ask one of my friends to drop me and purchased a ticket to travel by Singapore Airlines.

When you want something so bad, things always go wrong. Or at least in my case, it does happen. Like a person suffering from OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder), I checked if I had all the documents, made sure I had switched off the stove, had my keys, made the important calls and finished the last minute cleaning. All was well. We started off to the airport at 9:30pm. We had to deal with a traffic jam and also came across two accidents. However, I did reach before time and everything went on smooth from then onwards. Ravi and Sita wished me good-bye and left. I couldn't understand why but I was very anxious. My heartbeat was normal once the plane took off to a smooth start. Everything was so good except that we had very small meals with a huge gap:)). This was the first time I felt so hungry while flying. Apart from that, I did not have any other problem whatsoever. The best part of my trip was my halt at Singapore. I loved the airport and the country. Singaporeans are very clever and practical in the way they have built their city. The people are very courteous and diplomatic in their approach. Right from the housing to their secular beliefs, everything appealed me.

To top it all, I met this wonderful academician who works with the top-notch companies and the cream of Indian engineers (IITians). We had a great discussion and a fee trip to the island. The cruise on the boat was great. Overall it was a lovely and a memorable trip.

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Procastination or waiting for the opportunity ?

Something or the other always bothers me. Well, I know that I am not a pessimist but neither am I an eternal optimist. However, I have realized that I no longer wait to enjoy the fruits of my labor but continue to keep working on the next goals. Apart from this, I have also observed that I take a long time to make a decision. I keep contemplating upon the same thought over and over, consult several others, think over it again and again and then take a step. For instance, choosing a job or even purchasing a laptop. It took me 4 months to buy one . Of course I am glad for the choice I made but sometimes feel that I should have been more quicker in my action.

Apart from this, I feel I am procastinating while the other times I feel I am just waiting for the right time and the right thing. All this leaves me in a very confused state. For instance buying a car. I have been in LA for the last 8 months and it bothers me that I still don't drive around. Most of the times I feel very uncomfortable and the other times ashamed of myself. Every time I take the bus, something in me reminds me of what I have been avoiding for such a long time. I feel embaressed with my situation and as to why I have been waiting for so long to buy a car. However, when I think over it, I realize that I had done my part but need to put in some more effort and may be there is a time for everything.

Off late, I have noticed that I am moving at a very slow pace when compared to others. The next moment, I feel I have been constantly striving to get things done and in the process I am not even acknowledging my efforts and success. I usually have a rough start with anything I venture and slowly gain efficiency and confidence over it. When I look back, it bothers me that I have been really working hard to get things done. Still, I am not where I want to be and am also not satisfied with what I have achieved. So what’s the problem? Is it because I procrastinate when I have to work or think too much when I can move ahead without a second thought?

I am just baffled by my moves and myself. How do I prioritize my work? How do I analyze what is imminent for me? How do I know what doesn't need too much of thinking but needs prompt action? What will help me realize where I need to stop and think more than once before venturing into it? Too many questions leave me once again in a confused state.

Hmmmm......... Well, I just think this is a phase of growing up. May be my thinking process is in the evolving stage and soon will find its stable stage and also the answers to my questions.

This page is powered by Blogger. Isn't yours?